Today was a terrible day. And it was all my fault. Looking back at it, i feel so totally stupid and ashamed of myself. i was pigheaded, selfish and totally a ninny (in her words). i wish i didn't do it to spoil her day. i wasn't understanding at all, was totally childish and myopic.
if i were to lose her it would be all my fault. people say that a woman leaves a man because he isn't understanding at all times. i'm so fearful that i'll lose her because i wasn't understanding enough. she really loves me. but i was just so silly. gosh, i really disdain myself. if only there was something i could do to make it all better..
well, now i'm more resolved to love her more fiercely and devotedly. and at the same time, understand her more and do my very best not to be so daomei. i'm still learning but i definitely won't forget today's lesson.
Darling, i'm sorry. please try to forgive me. if you don't wanna its ok, i probably don't deserve it anyway. i'm so ashamed of myself.
bury me somebody.
wait.
that will be cowardly. the best thing to do, is to not make the same mistake again. and always always put her before me.
i want to be her hero. everyday.